19.8.14

I'm almost 30!

I'm turning 30 in a few days, and never has a "number" held so much meaning for me. I honestly think I'm more excited about this birthday then I was about turning 18, and I've been trying to figure out why that is....


In some ways I've spent my 20's doing things quite differently to my friends. 30 seems to be an age where many peers start to think about things like mortgages, marriage, babies and the rest...but I did that (minus the mortgage!!) so long ago! Married my total favourite person at 19 and became a mum at 21, and so my 20's have been this kind of insane whirlwind of learning what it means to be someone's partner, and to have your heart full to bursting with love for your kidlets.... while feeling INCREDIBLY young and clueless. I was, of course, at the same time still trying to do what most people in their 20's do..go to uni, grow up, become an adult, have a "career," travel, discover the world, have fun and figure myself out. (That's what being a 20 something is all about, right?)

Reflecting on my 20's..... it's been chaos, but also incredible. I must admit I've become a pretty great partner and mum. Not perfect, occasionally scatter brained and over emotional....but pretty great. I have figured a lot of stuff out. About myself, about politics, about faith and about people. I am slowly starting to know myself, what I can handle, what I can't. I am proud of who I am. I really like my body, it's done amazing things. I have values in my life that matter to me. I am not afraid to love and be loved. I believe in my talent, yet don't fret about success and fame. I have known deep, deep sorrow and yet live with an unshakable thirst for joy. I am learning to be honest with myself and others. I now know that I enjoy the quiet as much as the noise. My life has many responsibilities and (at times) burdens, but I still play, create, laugh, giggle and sing like a teenager. Oh, and swear like a sailor. I am unapologetically ME, and I know who my true friends are, the ones I can be totally ME with.

So I think I'm super excited about being 30 because it feels like right at this moment in my life I can finally admit that I'm starting to feel like a grown up, and that's worth celebrating, right?

Mezz xx

13 comments:

  1. Great post Mezz! I'm half way through my thirties and they've been great so far. I think they are the time when you do learn to just be you and to pot with those who don't like it ;) ... Bee xx

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  2. Absolutely...happy birthday. Love your summary of the 20's. Here's to a fabulously full thirties. Xxx

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  3. happy birthday, lovely post indeed��������

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  4. Sounds like 30 year old Mez has a good head on your shoulders! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :)

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  5. It sounds like you're hitting your stride Mezz and that's definitely worth celebrating.
    Here's to the 30's, and a wonderful decade ahead of you........
    Happy 30th.....celebrate and enjoy.

    Claire Xx




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  6. Happy birthday Mezz.
    ( I hadn't pegged you for a swearer ;) )
    x

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  7. Happy 30th Birthday dear heart. You are in such a different place to what I was at the same age,,,, I had just realised my dream of being a mother by that magical age of 30! For all sorts of reasons it took me a lot longer to figure out a lot of what you've already learned, but the good thing is, no matter what age we are, we are a work in progress and keep learning and growing. My goodness, by the time you are in your 60s, there'll be no stopping you! Love you xo

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  8. Hope you had (or are having) a luverly birthday, Mezz - sounds like you're on an amazing journey of discovery - enjoy!!! :)
    Alison x

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  9. Yay for Mezz! Great post! Thanks for the great friend that you are!

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